the heartbroken one

well this is kind of an old epiphany i had, but its still good.

this past year unfortunatley i've let my life revovle around one person, & this was not God. at summer camp this year i looked back on ym year & i was ashamed to see the person i became. i know thats not the person i want to be.

i thought about all the heartbreak i had felt that year, & ya i know it was a really old relationship, but i was still feeling reprecussions. i loved this person & i had been totally hurt by them & almost neglected...

then thinking this i felt more guilty, once again i was making my life around this person, but thats the last thing i wanted to do. & it hit me...

the way i had been treated by this person was almost like the way i had been treating God. & God loves me so much more than i loved this guy. so in a way he was heartbroken from the way a was treating him. i know its kind of a stretch, but it makes sense to me. i was making this past year about a relationship that wasn't the relationship i should've been working on; mine & God's.

so i started after camp...putting my best foot forward, trying to patch up my broken relationship with God, i would never want Him to feel the way i felt, & was making him feel.